Happy Happy New Year! I truly hope you had a great year filled with lots of love and adventure. I am so excited to step into this new year with you and continuously strive to become the best versions of ourself physically, emotionally, and spiritually together!
A little recap of 2023:
Personally, 2023 was one of the most challenging years I have had personally, if not ever! I started the year depressed and close to being broke. What I realize now looking back, it was my spirit that was broken. Really broken. I truly believe that most of our financial, mental, emotional, relational, and physical challenges all stem from some aspect from our spirit being broken. Whether it is loss, betrayal, or an accident, when we experience a disconcerting event, it breaks off a piece of our soul and our work is to heal it and integrate it. Pain of any sort, is a teacher that brings awareness to our mental, physical, and emotional bodies and helps us grow and evolve.
For the first 5 months of 2023, I hardly did any social activities or work above my absolute basic responsibilities and dove into the depths of my soul. My natural tendency is to physically run from my pain and move to different places. But with the assistance and support of my new found Buddhist practice and community, I stuck my flag in the ground and committed to change my ways.
It was tough. It was dark. I really wasn’t okay for months. My mom thought I was going crazy. (I kind of was to be honest). Thankfully we had my sister to keep us both sane.
I had to contract to expand, just like a sunflower slightly closes before its new layer of petals emerges. I faced a lot of limiting beliefs and stories that I had been telling myself for years. Those stories of “you’re not good enough, who do you think you are, you can't do that” surfaced for me to address, find the root cause, and rewrite and rewire in my brain.
I came out of that depression slowly, starting late May early June. It was a very gradual bloom (no pun intended) with a new sense of excitement, clarity, and direction. Looking back, taking that time to isolate and reflect, learn, and grow was the best things I ever did.
If we don't address the root cause of our pain and suffering, we will always run circles and repeat patterns.
In 2023, learned to trust myself because I got to know myself. I asked myself the hard questions and learned to trust the answers I received even if I didn't want to hear them I learned the power of saying no and learned to not care what other people think of me, and do what feels right in my gut. I was also able to increase my income without increasing my stress which - was amazing.
The hours of prayer, meditation, reading, and spending time in nature really paid off. I met some of my closest friends later in the year and have deepened my other relationships all because I deepened my relationship with myself.
Here’s a few reflections of mayyyybeee in some weird way a fantastic year?! I encourage you to think about these and write them down too!
My biggest wins in 2023:
Biggest lessons learned:
Advice I would have given myself 1 year ago:
Advice I will give myself for this 2024:
Forecast for 2024:
I'm really excited about next year. I have committed to keeping my past in the past and step forward into the new year with a fresh perspective and a new set of eyes. I am stepping into the new year with attainable goals, a clear direction, a confident sense of self, and a plan of action to reach those goals. This is huge for me, because it's something I told myself that I wasn't capable of doing without the help of someone else.
Within the next 3 months look forward to:
I appreaciate you so much. Thank you for being on this journey with me. You being here means the world and I hope with my whole heart that you have a very healthy, happy, fulfilling, and successful 2024! I am excited to keep sharing and helping uplift and inspire you along the way! I feel more refreshed and energized to bring this community together than I ever have been and I truly appreciate how all of you have been so patient and understanding as I've undergone this radical transformation of self. It means the world. We are all in this together!
"I’ve got my bags packed,I’m ready to go. Ready to feel, return back to my soul.To be alive again, feel completely whole. Ready to be, in a place I extol."
- BLOOM pg 138
All my love,